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Last night I went to see my two favorite bands who just happened to be touring TOGETHER, Paramore and No Doubt. My little soul just exploded last night, it was so wonderful. We had pretty good seats. Hayley Williams is so tiny and just as powerful on stage as she is on CD. And my Gwen Stefani, it was so great to see her once more. Homegirl has some fucking amazing abs, and she just had two babies!

Anyway…Kyle didn’t love it as much as I did, but he was a decent sport and stayed until the end. I took the day off today so I can recover from the late night and it’s now rainy and gross. I scheduled a riding lesson at 4:00 but until then I think I might get my nails done, blast some No Doubt and go to the tack store for some new breeches. Because I just can’t have enough crap.

Work is kicking my ass hardcore. I feel like I have no life, as if I don’t even really have an apartment or a family. Even on my days off, I am running around usually to doctors appointments, or the barn, or god knows where. I don’t know if it just feels particularly worse this week because I house-sat for my mom all last week or what. I miss domestic bliss, I miss cleaning my home and baking and taking my dogs on walks. I miss having time to sit here like a loaf and obsess over Adobe Photoshop. Whine whine whine whine as per usual. I did win big time this past weekend at a horse show which was neat. I won my division, and placed high in a few other classes which won me some money, a bag, and dinner plate. Yeah, a dinner plate.

Anyway–still don’t have any exciting and/or bad news to share with you all. Hopefully by Friday. Keep sticking around ok? And update your freakin’ blogs so when I do find a hot second to spare I’ve got some juicy stuff to read!

I am sitting at work killing some time after a long long morning of appointments and weirdness. The Dr. has left for the day and now I’ve got to hold down the fort until 6:00. I apologize for the sparse updates, as per usual my life has found a way to become absolutely insane even without the presence of school. I have been horse showing my ass off, and loving every second. Broke as a joke, but it’s totally worth it. Some other things developing hopefully soon…but I can’t divulge on the internet just yet. Oh yeah, we didn’t end up taking that new apartment because they wanted a 600 dollar NON-REFUNDABLE pet deposit. Sorry, but that’s ridiculous. I really loved the place. But it’s ok…like I said, some other things may be developing soon so we’ll see. I hope some good luck blows my way the next week or so.

I am housesitting for my parents this week which is neither here nor there. It’s nice because they live 7 minutes from work so I can wake up a half hour later, but I am without my beloved computer, pets, and boy. Although the pets and boy will be visiting me over the weekend and partaking in the horseshowing shenanigans. Alright, I better go sweep a floor or something. Blah.

Just a quick photo to show you from last week’s horse show…once more, thanks to Cody of Xpression Photography. Click thumbnail to view full size image.

A day off is never really a day off. But I still like the feeling of not having to get all ready and make a 45 minute bleary-eyed drive to work. I shouldn’t really say anything because the more and more I think about it, it probably won’t work out. But yesterday Kyle and I toured a new apartment. It is further away from everything by about 15 minutes (my drive to work is already 40) but it’s a BRAND NEW complex with a pool, 24 hour gym, we’d have our own private entrance, two walk in closets, a gorgeous kitchen, a LAUNDRY room, etc etc. All for about the same price we pay now.

Anyway, so while Kyle is back at work today for the first time since he broke his little arm, I get to take on the glorious task of calling our apartment people and asking when our lease is up…and trying to negotiate with the new people, blah blah blah. I just have this feeling they won’t be able to hold that one coveted apartment until August because it’s so new and sought after. But jesus…my heart nearly exploded when we went inside.

In other news, we are still planning a cruise to the Caribbean, Belize, etc. I am more confident in that going through, so the day won’t be a total loss. Oh yes–I horse showed on Saturday. It was LONG, I was there for 12 hours, and showed in the last division, but I do feel I rode really well. I’m still pretty new to the jumping thing, and as fun as it is to get ribbons (I got two 2nds and three 3rds btw) it just means a lot to get out of the ring knowing I did my absolute best, and made my trainer happy. I’m learning more and more with each show. Alright off to actually get some work done in this gross house while I wait for the leasing office to open! Have a lovely day. xox

I am about to leave for work. So unbelievably tired. I just want to get through tomorrow so I can relax and settle in for my horse show on Saturday. (Yes, there will be pictures by Cody again!)

Anyway, just wanted to say hello. The blogging world has been kind of quiet these past two weeks. What’s the deal? xoxo

So after two really rough emotional weeks, I am finally getting back into a routine. Kyle and I went through a rough spot and I sort of fell off the face of the planet. But all is well again, and here I am. Also, school has finally finished for the semester and while I am not thrilled, I managed to sneak away with a 3.47 gpa. I can’t complain considering all the crap that sort of got thrown in my face these past few months. I always manage to push myself through the clouds and make it out alive.

Anyway, I spent all day today painting signs for my riding instructor and her mother (they both have businesses) and am exhausted. I have to get up crazy early tomorrow for work and then even more “work” afterwards. But the fun kind…which brings me to my next venture. Hey, did I tell you that I’m going to be sorta kinda working for my best friend Cody? He’s a great photographer and I’ve been using my photoshop skills (obsession) to play around with his work. So anyway, we have a neat little partnership going on.

So I have lots to do this summer. 30+ hours per week at the Vet Clinic, horse shows, and lots of artistic odd jobs for Cody and Jeannine. Also Kyle and I just began planning for a much needed vacation. We are going on a cruise over Christmas. Yes. Please. Ok, enough of this quick power blogging. Time to shower and settle in for bed. xoxo

Today I took two out of three finals (last one is Friday). I got a 68% on the first…awesome. The second, we’ll see. Not too worried about that one. I’m kind of over the whole school situation for this semester and can’t wait until I can toss out my last chunk of notes on Friday.

A lot has been going on in my life, some if it I’ve decided not to dish out on here. I’m trying to stay positive, take some serious time to contemplate my future, and make good decisions. Feeling like a train wreck all the time is no fun. No fun for me, and surely no fun for people around me. So I am working on getting better and getting back to the basics.

Thanks for all who commented on my horse show photos! I am showing again at the end of the month, perhaps I will have some more pictures to share. I’ve really been diving into equestrianism, it seems to really challenge me in ways that are amazingly beneficial. Even when I make mistakes or have trouble with something, I still feel good when I’m done. I should have gone to school for Equine Science or whatever that weirdo agricultural major is called. Anyways–the downfall of my beloved hobby is that it’s driving me practically bankrupt. But riding is just something I refuse to give up and it’s way too therapeutic.

I hope to get back to regular blogging soon, like…beginning today. Now. Ready..set…go.

I should be writing my paper right now but I am taking a quick break to update silly brainshambles with some of this past weekend’s horse show photos. They were all taken by my good friend Cody Behunin of Xpression Photography, and he deserves mad props. We were there all day! Hope you enjoy…there are a ton.

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When everything seems as if it’s imploding? So hard to stay on top of the game, keep everyone happy, and not lose yourself in the process.

I want me back. Hopefully soon.