Getting really irritated.
So as some of you may know, over the past 9 months I have lost a good amount of weight by following the Weight Watchers plan. Being skinny again is really fabulous, and while I still have problem areas, I finally feel pretty good about myself. I eat as much as I possibly can, I rarely deprive myself, and I don’t ever skip a meal.
Here’s the thing. Lately, I keep getting all of these comments from people about being anorexic, and how I look too skinny, blah blah…am I on drugs, blah blah. I cannot tell you how frustrating it is to have worked so hard for my own health and body image, and have people start ASSUMING that I have some sort of eating disorder. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I LOVE TO FUCKING EAT. Go out with me sometime, seriously. Watch me try and resist dessert. Because it won’t happen. And I won’t be running to the bathroom to vomit afterwards, either. The reason I have gotten so skinny and stayed this way, is because I DID IT THE RIGHT FUCKING WAY.
At first, the skinny comments made me feel nice, like all of my hard work was paying off. But it’s getting to the point where I hate being pointed out. People make me FEEL like I have an eating disorder when they keep pointing out my weight loss, downsizing me, chastizing me for my new look. Is it all just jealousy, or are people genuinely concerned? And what am I supposed to do about it, gain 5 pounds to make other people happy? Seriously. If I feel comfortable in my body, and I am healthy and eating well and thriving…should I just brush the haters off?
Or do I really look ill, do I look BAD like this? Do I look disgusting? I never had a fucking body image complex until all these people started sticking their fingers in my brain. I hate having to give the same little speech, over and over again. It goes like this:
“I am 5′3″ being 140 pounds was NOT healthy for me. I am in my healthy weight range, and my BMI is normal, yes I eat lots of food, no I don’t vomit, and I don’t exercise because I’m lazy.”
Seriously. I have to tell someone this every god damn day. What is a girl supposed to do?
[EDIT] PS–Allison, my lab partner and fellow hot biatch is super understanding, I don’t even know if she reads this. But I love her. And I am so happy to have met someone who is as neurotic as me, and understands what’s up.[EDIT]
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while I’m not sure it is appropriate for me to answer this - since when such things happened to me I well yeah
But unlike I was, you are actually monitoring your weight, so you will know if your BMI is too low. you did lose a lot of weight so I can see the concern, but the concerned people probably also think you will continue to lose at that rate - which would be awful. However, you are doing maintenance now right? I know it is tough to block out those comments that inevitably make one self-conscious and nervous, but if you can hold on for a bit - if they see you are maintaining not losing to scariness - it should stop. and if not, fuck em.
i think you look healthy. i always get told that i look annorexic, or that i’m too skinny. seriously, i try to gain weight. i eat everything in the world to gain it, and my metabolism is just too high. i know everyone wants to kill me right now, but seriously, we have problems with it too. i understand what you’re going through and don’t pay attention to any of those people. if you’re happy in your own skin and your body, that’s all that matters. you know? i think you’re gorgeous!
Thanks mo. I am in “maintenance” mode now, and have been trying to play around with my “point” allowances as to not lose any more. It’s hard to find the balance when you finally get to goal weight, so I am hoping that in a month or so when my body stabilizes people will just GET OVER IT and accept me as I am. It’s weird how those comments normally are flattering–but are turning into psychological torture. I know some girls that say shit are “jealous” or whatever, and I have to keep reminding myself of that. But still, I feel really awkward.
I totally appreciate you’re input. And it is ALWAYS appropriate, by the way, for you to answer my posts.
I value your input and opinions.
Thanks Jess, it’s nice to hear that I’m not alone. This is all so strange, I’m not used to this sort of negative attention. You’re right, if I am healthy and happy, it really shouldn’t matter.
And you are freaking beautiful
yeaahhh i told a friend i had started WW and she was like, but you finally look normal. i thought you were going to die last year!
seriously. i weighed 120 and i am 5′3″.
like maureen said, fuck ‘em! you didn’t work your ass off to feel bad about yourself.
I have only this to say…
You ARE skinny. In a healthy way, though… maybe a better word is “proportional”. Not too small but not too large either.
And I’m impressed! Maybe even a little bit jealous. Like most American women, I struggle to maintain a healthy weight as well. You have stuck with it, lost the necessary weight, and are maintaining a healthy weight. I don’t know if anyone has said this, but CONGRATULATIONS on all the healthy habits I know you have learned!
Don’t worry honey, I am getting the same response from people!!!
I think it’s a combo of jealousy and people who are just overly judgemental! I eat all my points plus bonus points, I eat more than the people who make those comments!!! It also doesn’t help that we inherited the ribcage sticking out thing. No matter what size I am you can always see my ribs, but now people are convinced it’s a new thing.
Keep on truckin with WW!!! I love it!
xo
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