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Once again, I got all worked up last night about today’s scheduled Statistics exam. Of course, the instructor completely forgot we had a test and instead gave us three questions to do at home and turn in as a “take-home quiz”. I guess I shouldn’t complain.

Work was long and steady today. Not much was going on in the back (where the vet assistants do most of their work) so I volunteered to take over the front and let one of the receptionists go home early. Despite running on an hour of sleep I was feeling particularly generous today. I am glad to finally be home and get some house work accomplished. But herein lies the great question…after four days of little to no sleep, do I relapse and take an Ambien? Or continue to push onward with my quest to become pill free? I need the sleep so badly. My health is deteriorating and I can feel my body shutting down. But at the same time, I am so determined to rid my life of this awful dependency on sleeping pills. As suggested by Kalen I purchased a bottle of maximum strength melatonin yesterday at the grocery. It didn’t do much for me last night, but I am hoping it will help in the long run. Gotta start somewhere, right?

Ice cream, dishes, tv, bed.