The truth is hiding in your eyes and it’s hanging on your tongue

Feb 24

Today was ridiculous. I am going to leave it at that. I just want to be fabulous and efficient and passionate all at the same time. Are my little idiosyncrasies and awkward approach just too much?

I can only be so perfect.

But you know who’s always perfect? Marilyn.

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That which gives light must endure burning.

Feb 21

This weekend was more busy and productive than usual. I am no longer the socialite I used to be, so it was nice to attend the Up & Over annual Banquet (it’s a Horse association I’m a member of) on Saturday evening. I won four awards, had two glasses of delicious wine and enjoyed a delightful meal. Kyle and I also left the house Sunday morning for breakfast. But the true highlight of this weekend, I must say was the fabulous finds at a nearby outlet mall. I’m falling more and more in love with Banana Republic. I find it a bit amusing to flaunt about in the dressing room, wearing such darling delicate pieces of clothing while covered in ample amounts of ink. I guess I’ve always been a fan of high contrast.

After my extravagant shopping trip I spent an hour ironing shirts for both Kyle and myself while also organizing my wardrobe. Laundry-done. Dishwasher-on. Hair-straightened. Eyebrows-groomed. Nails-freshly painted. New books for my lunch hour-purchased.

And alas, I am ready to hit the ground running towards another bustling work week. Good night, my darlings.

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Don’t let it pass you by.

Feb 20

I want to slowly roam the aisles of a book store and delve into pure, solid, new thought. Never one for fiction. Always reality. Gritty raw stories and thought processes that allow me to feel the way I was meant to feel. Relate to events that many would find abnormal or undesirable. Escape from my reality, but in a way that is still real. It is a strange dichotomy really, the ways in which I want to run so hard and so far away from demons, only so I can feel and breathe in new ones. I am content but always searching. In the end, isn’t it all just a dream?

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You think you know, but you have no idea.

Feb 18

I work hard, eat lots of ice cream, and fixate on strange things. I’m tired. But I’m also feeling the familiar (and very missed) pulse of passion, curiosity and creativity. It’s coming back. Always does…little waves, little ripples. My core.

Life is bizarre. And I continue to ride the waves. Stay tuned.


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Too early even for an insomniac.

Feb 10

I awoke at 4:45am this morning to prepare for an early meeting. I am pretty neurotic about checking my phones (yes, plural) as soon as I wake, but for some strange reason today I just let the dogs out, stumbled into the bathroom, and got myself all perfect and ready.

And then, I got the memo that the meeting was rescheduled. HA! Oh well, might as well do some housework and update the old brainshambles. No use wasting time on sleep with fresh makeup. Life has been fairly chaotic but in a good way, I do think. I’m continuing to enjoy the whirlwind that is my new career and wedding plans are moving right along. We received our invitations last week and they look absolutely darling. I really feel like we made the right choice by ordering online. They came out even better than I anticipated and were completely customized for a bargain. Bridesmaids have all met one another and ordered their dresses. Contract for the venue has finally been signed. Now if I can just make it through the rest of the madness…fittings, showers, picking centerpieces and favors…

Side note: have I mentioned that I am considering stripping this space down so it is basically just a portfolio of my art and photography? I keep waiting to see if life will slow down and my feelings will change, but blogging just isn’t what it used to be for me. I want to be creative, I want to share, but I also feel as if I need to create some distance. I’ve been doing this for over 10 years and it’s been a fun ride. It would be so hard to let go, but I’ve got real things to fixate on now. Like my fiance, house hunting, dogs and my work. We’ll just have to see. Until then…

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