April 13, 2011 – 30 Weeks

I hate to use the word “can’t”. But I just feel like I can’t continue on like this.

I’m sure everyone reaches this point in gestation, where everything hurts and nothing feels right. For anyone who thinks 5 weeks of bed rest sounds like a vacation, let me just clarify – I have not taken one single nap during this entire period of time. I also don’t sleep more than 4 hours each night. My eyelids are starting to look bruised and purple. My husband continues to be a peach, dealing with my whining and helping me off the couch when I can’t seem to roll myself over.

When can I choose little outfits for the day? When can I pop open my double stroller and take the ladies on a walk? When can I start weight watchers again or even *gasp* wear my size Medium sweatpants?

Me me me. It’s all about me. It’s not really. It’s all about these little beans I’m growing. Humans need reward. I want my reward. Impatience combined with pain and feelings of inadequacy makes for a rough mental climate.

Maybe tomorrow I can write about good things.

Posted by Katelyn in Uncategorized. 3 comments

Comments

{1} Momfish:

I’m sorry, friend. I worry about ya and wish I lived closer. I remember crying because I got stuck on my back and couldn’t breathe… I was about where you are and I was just… done. You’re not alone – it’s def tough. Thinking of you & the girls <3 Almost there.


Apr 13, 2011
5:41 pm

{2} bluejeanamy:

oh man, i hear you…that last 4-6 week chunk is just hard. and i can’t even imagine having TWO moving/restless little bugs in there. and to be stuck on the couch, worrying they might come early. you’re doing a great great job cooking them up and it WILL be over soon. maybe you should start some crazy suspenseful tv series with a million episodes that makes the time fly? have you watched veronica mars? helped me get thru some loooooong and painful sleepless nights. you can do it!! (end random comment)


Apr 13, 2011
8:49 pm

{3} EmmySuh:

So sorry you are feeling so helpless! I know it must be hard to suddenly have to put two other nonentities first! Hope the next few weeks go faster!


Apr 14, 2011
11:56 am

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