When does it start to work?

I keep saying to myself that if I could just catch up on a few hours sleep everything would come together. That’s always the phrase…”if I could just get an hour…even an hour…” Insomnia. Twin preemies. Pop-in visitors. This is out of control. But Kyle and I must stay strong for each other. For our [...]

Apres moi, le deluge

This morning, I can say, was the first time I felt the whole “oh…you’ll never sleep, ever, with a new baby”. Kyle sleeps very well, but I do not. Around 6:00 a.m. Paige decided she was only happy being held, rather than in her crib…so we sat and fell asleep as the sun came up [...]

“The house does not rest upon the ground, but upon a woman.”

I love mornings. Always have. Everyone is asleep…and I can clean as much as I want and Lysol surfaces as MANY times as I desire without any interruption or teasing. I have one hour left before Audrey and Paige need to be fed…so this will be quick. Our first pediatrician appointment went really well. They [...]

Coffee please. Yes, I’ve had two cups. MORE coffee.

I dress my little girls like little boys. This is not by choice (although I do fancy little boy outfits). Preemie clothes are hard to find, and apparently Wal-Mart is a misogynist company. Last night, the alarm was supposed to be set for 2:30am. It never went off…and I woke to the sounds of fussy [...]

H O M E

My little ladies came home today after spending 21 days in the NICU. The house is very (and strangely) quiet. And I’m mostly concerned with the temperature. Are they too hot? To cold? Should I undo the swaddle? Am I going to starve them to death? Ahhh.

And when it rains

My girls are doing well. I don’t have too much to update on this morning, everything is about the same as yesterday. I am in mourning today, as I’ve decided to stop the pumping nonsense and make the switch to preemie formula. There are many reasons (medical/nonmedical) for this decision, but regardless of reason…it’s an [...]

2 weeks

Sorry if this blog temporarily becomes a redundant listing of counted weeks, redundant posts about waiting…waiting…waiting. Actually, I guess if you’re still here, that’s basically what you’ve been reading for the last 8 months. It’s just a little different now. Anyhow, today I am exactly 2 weeks postpartum. I’ve lost 27 miraculous pounds. A few [...]

Passing the time with cold confections.

Today I am 11 days postpartum. Last night’s NICU visit was a really good one. Paige was a little stronger with her bottle feed, but still had to take half through the NG tube. Miss Audrey was a little eating champ. It’s incredible how much more I love them every day. Being at home alone [...]

Hanging in there.

Every night, Kyle and I drive up to the hospital to visit the babies in the NICU. We like to make the 8:00 p.m. feed. This evening, we got there around 6:45 p.m. and by 7:30, were just about to call it quits. We were so tired…and thought since the girls have been slowing down [...]

May 8, 2011 – My First Mother’s Day

One week ago today I gave birth to two angels after a very long and painful hospital stay. They came into this world 8 weeks early and began their own life struggles in the NICU. I am still groggy and my memory is spotty as I fight to recover from the emergency surgery. However, I [...]