And when it rains

My girls are doing well. I don’t have too much to update on this morning, everything is about the same as yesterday. I am in mourning today, as I’ve decided to stop the pumping nonsense and make the switch to preemie formula. There are many reasons (medical/nonmedical) for this decision, but regardless of reason…it’s an emotional battlefield. Has anyone ever dealt with this awful mommy guilt? I keep saying that I gave them “the nectar of the gods” for 2 weeks, when I wasn’t planning on doing it for ANY weeks…so that’s a good thing…right? This is ok. I am an ok person. I am not an evil horrible selfish person.

I wish it would just stop raining. Everything is worse when it rains.

My girls had a little “twin cuddling” time after they ate last night. It was precious.

Posted by Katelyn in Uncategorized. 2 comments

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{1} Momfish:

They’ll be fine and so will you. Remember – they are on formula for one year of their life before they switch. One year in 100 years. It isn’t going to set them up for disaster. Everly has been sick once in one year and she was formula fed from like day 2. Also, the best relief I ever got was someone who sent me information about how many toxic chemicals, etc. are in breastmilk these days because of our environment and food. Quite honestly, it’s not the magic it used to be… though I still think it’s better because it’s inexpensive and natural.

You’re a good mama. This is the first of a million decisions that you’ll feel like this about. We all do.


May 17, 2011
7:18 pm

{2} Jessica:

you made a great decision. i breastfed for 6 weeks. hannah was NEVER able to latch (flat nipples, being a preemie, had to use that stupid damn nipple shield). she was waking up every 1 1/2 hours to eat and i was having to pump after feedings to get the “preemie” breatsmilk to “mature” milk. i was in a fog for 6 weeks, i ended up with postpartum depression, it was horrible.

one day i looked at my husband and i was like “GET THE BOTTLE & THE FORMULA NOW!!!!”

best decision i ever made. some people can do it and kudos to them, but i just wasn’t one of those people that could handle the emotional (and lack of sleep) turmoil.

plus, formula has all the added benefits these days that are almost a complete match for breastmilk.

trust me, at this stage, your sanity is more important for your babies.


May 24, 2011
11:07 am

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