Brainshambles

See…maybe all that vanity will pay off.

Guilt is an interesting emotion. Sometimes it creeps up on you when you least expect it, other times it can be conjured on demand. I should write more. I should eat, sleep and breathe more. I should definitely make more time to nurture the little corners of my psyche that fuel passionate outbursts. Time, there [...]

This morning I awake wearing more hats, possessing more names and labels than ever before. Among them, I am a mother. A wife. A daughter. An artist. I have many roles to fill. Many mouths to feed, and many souls to warm. But to satisfy all others, I must protect and nurture myself. And with [...]

Occasionally, in between beats of my constantly fluttering wings, I take a look down at myself. Being so constantly stimulated (a state of my own natural choosing) is tiresome but at the same time keeps me bright. Even when I reach a peak of lethargy, I envision a tiny little coal inside my chest glowing [...]

I wake up at 5:41 a.m., feeling less than satisfied. The lights turn on, still nobody feels home. I muster up enough energy on this particular morning (and many like it shall follow) to apply the bare minimum war paint upon my face. I think fleetingly about the irony–my constant lack of breathing room, juxtaposed [...]

Achieving greatness is proving to be quite difficult. Working against the grain and occasionally against my nature; those urges to constantly please, never decline, and push beyond reasonable expectations. I must remind myself though, that these same features (flaws?) allow me to do remarkable things given proper circumstances. The struggle of course, is to create [...]